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I saw an interesting blog last week written by Mike McBride of ChildAbuseSurvivor.net. Mike writes about abuse as an adult male who was abused as a child. In his blog, he talks about healing from abuse, and growing older. He says many abuse survivors try to heal so that they can get back to the person they were BEFORE they were abused.

Do YOU do that?

While I’ve never heard anyone say they wanted get back to the person they were before they were abused, I do know many people who are in a denial about their abuse. I was once one of these. I know others who say, “If only <the abuse> had never happened to me.”

Why do we do this? 

Could it be if don’t admit we’ve been abused, it will somehow go away? (Of course not). Or if we wish away the abuse, we could become the innocent, happy “before” people we once were?

My question to you is, would you REALLY want to be that innocent person? Would you want to be the person who could fall into the trap of your abuser? Would you want to be a person who might not have empathy for a fellow abuse survivor because you somehow believe s/he “asked for it? or even worse “LIKED IT??”

Speaking for myself, I say no. I don’t want to go back to that “before” version of myself. That version of me was innocent of the evil some people contain, yes. But I have grown in more ways than I can count. I am infinitely stronger than I was. I have lived through hell and survived it, and learned to thrive. I had to depend on God, and learned He is dependable. I had to reach out to strangers, and learned I could trust their kindness. I have spread my wings in ways I never would have. I never had ANY thought of becoming a domestic violence advocate, writing a book, creating a blog, or ministering to other abused people. God set me on this path, and while it has its ups and downs and I often wonder what I am supposed to do next, I have never doubted I was on the right road.

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I don’t want to be the person I was before my abuse. I’m stronger now. I’m a survivor! (Tweet this)

So, again, I ask you, even if it WERE possible, would you WANT to go back to the person you were BEFORE your abuse?

If you find you feel stuck and would like some healing, please check out my book, A Journey to Healing After Emotional Abuse.